a long awaited ERASE

lot of things happening around.
lot of things happening in my head.
my mind is thinking too much.
my body doing very very less.

i remember i started with an empty white paper.
and without a thought i started scribbling, doodling, sketching.
was i impatient?
was i freaked out?
and now when i look at the same paper..it looks mess.
from the distance it looks like a paper filled with ugly little things.
but for me, when i look at each little sketch independently, that makes some sense.
I don't know. But i don't want this paper in front of my eyes.
i don't wanna tear it off or burn it.
what can i do?
or should i just make a paper-plane out of it and say goodbye.
what?
what one can do?
or should i just take some effort.
and ERASE it all?
should i?
just ERASE.
sounds like a solution to my problem.
so i think i am gonna do that.
and i`ll then keep this erased paper in front of me, always.
may be that will remind me about all the things i got rid off.
the things those put together made an ugly little picture.
yes, i am gonna frame it and keep it around.

i want it to be an accidental format that happens where you dont have any backup or something.
where i am like clueless about the format that is going to happen.
and yet its intentional in this case.but i`ll pretend it just occurred out of the blue.

let me ERASE it for once and forever.

~ 27th Jan 2010